He left for Missouri to live with his dad. We have been so busy making arrangements, finishing up all the last-minute plans, and running him around to say good bye to his friends and family. When today finally came, it didn't seem real. I drove him to the airport, walked with him to his gate, and stood in line with him. Once the line started moving I grabbed him tight one more time and kissed him, finally realizing I wouldn't be able to do that for a while. (That's a tough one for me because I'm a physical touch person - and now I won't have that with Ry.) He turned around a few times as he walked down the ramp onto the plane, and then he was gone.
I can't lie; I completely lost it. Quietly, of course. But I lost it. I sobbed the whole way home. And in little spurts throughout my day. I went to the temple this afternoon and gained a tremendous amount of peace and reassurance there.
On Sunday Ry received a beautiful blessing from Papa Sterling, and the message I took away from that blessing is that Rylan has lives to change, and one of them may just be his own. He has a HUGE heart, and a generous Spirit. He will make an impact for good there - whether it be on his own family, his friends, or himself. He is going to do some growing.
It's kind of like a pre-mission mission!
I love him so much! Today has been one of the hardest days of my life, but I KNOW he will be watched over and cared for by a loving Heavenly Father who knows him, who understands his greatest fears and his deepest desires. I will miss having him WITH me, but I will keep in touch with him, and hopefully he will feel comfortable opening up to me and sharing his new world with me.
Love you Ry Guy!
A beautiful blessing for a beautiful boy!
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